Krapsakas

I’ve been wanting to “come out” for a very long time and be constantly pictured on social media with inspiration to others 🦋.

But the old wounds and the limitations that were taught me when I was a child kept holding me back.

“Who are you!?”

“What do YOU know!?”

“You haven’t even been to university!”

Etc.

Oh, the old good attitudes.

It’s pathetic that I was the first “black sheep” in my family who didn’t go to university (thereby paving the way for other black sheep, hihi 🤭).
But now I have “in my pocket” more experience and experience in various fields than “university-educated”.
Sidenote to those of you who have felt bad about the same topic – everyone goes their own way! You don’t have to do things the way others do 😊.

When I was in a long-term relationship my partner used to say a lot “So! Where are your millions!?”. Like man. I just started my business! What delulu are you living in?

Fast forward to say, when our relationship ended he said that he was envious of my company. Because I was so passionate about my business. Like “Hugh 🤨!?”.

Unfortunately, his “empty sentence” had done a good devastation to my self-esteem that lasted for years. ONE sentence! But the energy and state with which it was said did its job.

Now let’s get to today’s “day”.

In recent years, I have done a good cleaning job for the people in my “circle”.
If a person’s attitude (to life), way of thinking, and the direction in which they want to move does not match mine. If a person only whines and refuses to develop further, then unfortunately such a person has no place in my inner circle.

I realize this may sound very cold, but I have had unpleasant experiences in my life in the past. What does it mean to keep such people close to you and what harm does it do to yourself.

In recent months I have gotten more and more support and inspiration from “faraway” people.
It’s interesting how often the greatest support comes from strangers or acquaintances, but not from “your people”.
It has inspired me even more to do what I like and what inspires me.

I know that, even though I offer styling services, neither my home nor the contents of my wardrobe are “Instagram-like”, it’s a completely normal person’s 🫢😝.

I know my posts and pictures aren’t quite “Instagram” yet. To be honest, I don’t know if I even want to be that “typical Instagram account”.

And I know that my English is “funny” or “a little weird” because I write in English the way I write in Estonian and it is not grammatically correct. If that make any sense? But I also know it will get better with time.

I’ve always been different. With a different mindset and attitude. I don’t fit into the normal norms of society. And that’s okay too. I want to be “unusual Agnes” rather than “basic Agnes” 😊.

So, in the future, I will try to make such posts and blog posts that speak to me.
Even if it’s different.

If I inspire even one person with my personality, I’m already happy 🥰.

You know, I think I should complain less and do more from now on, haha 😅.

So welcome aboard if you are also a different, not a basic human 😅🫂😝!